Following her apologies to Courtney Stodden, Chrissy Teigen has gone silent on Twitter once more. Well, it’s been quite a saga, and it’s time for a little summary. Chrissy left Twitter (for the second time) in late March after stating, “My life objective is to make people happy.” The agony I experience when I don’t is too much for me to bear. I’ve always been depicted as a strong, laid-back female, but that’s not who I am.” She reappeared a month later, writing, “It feels TERRIBLE to mute oneself.” TMZ cited Courtney Stodden’s comments about Teigen bullying her on the site a decade ago around that time.
TMZ published screencaps of many 2011 tweets by Teigen, in which she advised Stodden to take a “dirt nap” and made other snarky comments. Stodden later spoke with The Daily Beast about the conduct, revealing that it extended to private communications (“[she] would secretly DM me and tell me to kill myself”). All of this culminated in Chrissy’s public apology to Stodden, in which she declared, “I’m humiliated and sad at who I used to be.” I was an insecure troll who craved attention.”
After a few weeks, Teigen has remained silent as the repercussions from the uncovered tweets continues. She canceled a Netflix show, according to unconfirmed claims, and she may have missed out on partnering arrangements. Teigen has written a lengthy piece for Medium in which she writes, “I’ve been sitting in a pit of merited worldwide punishment” in which she has felt “crushing sorrow” every second and day. Then refers to the current era as a “ultimate time-out,” and she goes on to say:
“As you know, a bunch of my old awful (awful, awful) tweets resurfaced. I’m truly ashamed of them. As I look at them and understand the hurt they caused, I have to stop and wonder: How could I have done that?
My previous heinous tweets have no justification. My objectives were not deserving of them. No one can accomplish it. Many of them required empathy, love, compassion, and support, not my savagery disguised as a wry sense of humour… I was, without a doubt, a troll. And please accept my heartfelt apologies.”
Chrissy claims she’s spent a lot of time thinking about how she didn’t notice red flags in her conduct when they appeared, and she claims she’s grown up and sought a lot of counseling in the name of self-improvement:
“I wasn’t mean in my everyday life. More than once, someone would come up to me and say, ‘You’re so much nicer in person.’ Why was that not a huge red flag? But I took it in and tossed it aside. I did book signings where girls would call me a bad ass bitch, and I’d stretch my arm toward them as they walked away, looking at my friends and saying, ‘I promise, I’m not!’”
I just didn’t get it at the time. Believe me, I understand now… I’m not the same person who wrote those heinous words anymore. I grew up, received therapy, married, had children, received more therapy, experienced loss and suffering, received more therapy, and had a fuller life. AND I RECEIVED MORE THERAPY.
